Painting With My Muse ...

You simply can't be your optimal best creatively unless you consult with your Muse. I always bring an offering of dark chocolate ...

Thursday, July 31, 2014

I haven't posted on my blog since just before my husband died.  I wanted to share some of the art I did since his passing to help me process the grief and to honor my love for him.  He was my biggest supporter and I know he still watches me paint and inspires some of my decisions as he did in life.

This painting is called "The Guardian" and she is very comforting to me and lets me know that we are never alone and are always love and watched over.

This one is Spirit Bear.  I originally called it "Going in for Courage" and it also allowed me to work through the loss and grief with the bear for strength and the full moon for power.
Sharing more art ….

I am doing a series of Frida paintings because I feel such a connection to her and her passion.  She was a woman ahead of her time, adventurous, fiery and creative.


Loving myself means
gathering up all 
the bits of me
I left behind
ran away from
turned my back on
locked in a box
buried it deep

The bits of me 
someone else didn’t like
or approve of
or think was good enough
I traded ME
for conditional acceptance
for conditional love
that is temporary at best
until they find
the next thing they want different
that isn’t quite 
what they want me to be
or look like
or act like

I am reclaiming myself
stepping up and out
looking within
fueling the fire of self love
creating a roaring bonfire 
feeding it with the old
self sacrifice
chameleon-like behavior
I gave away my power
because who was I
to be ME?

I place the crown of Self Sacrifice 
onto the bonfire 
and watch it turn to ashes
I claim my sovereignty
gathering my power to me
wrapping myself in self acceptance
I place the crown of Love 
upon my head
and reclamation is mine.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Art is a Gift you Deserve to Give Yourself

I love this painting because it reminds me how creativity was natural as playing when I was a child.  Somewhere along the way when comparison and judgment stepped in, I told myself I was no good and put away my artistic dreams.  

This painting was my affirmation that I am loved, I am heard, I am seen, I am safe, and I am Artist!  

I have used art for therapy and inspiration, and to work things through, and as a way to do satire and humor as well.  

Art to feed my soul and comfort my heart:

Art to remind me about the magical and whimsical moments of life:

I can't imagine my life without art anymore.  You can see that one image is worth 10,000 words because it is holds so much feeling, and is open to interpretation which can be different for each person who views it.  Every painting tells a story and I like to combine writing or poems with the painting which brings new dimensions in and connects the left and right side of the brain which results in greater creativity.

It also allows you to access parts of yourself you wouldn't meet otherwise.  It is going within and bringing image back out with you.  Images that are unique to you that allow your soul to communicate with you.

Just play with some doodling even with pencil and paper until you can get some crayons or colored pencils, or colored Sharpies, watercolors, brushes, whatever.  Just start somewhere and leave the judgment outside and give it something to do, like pull weeds while you play.

I'm going to check back with you ... I'm off to do some chores so I can get back to my easel and work on my creative life ... it offsets all the other things you have to do in life ... it's a reward!!  Have fun and play like you remember how.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

You may have noticed my long absence from my blog and I apologize because I had told myself I would write at least once a week and between painting, finishing up classes, starting new classes, creating a website, and endless details ... I let my blog slide.

The excitement this week is that my art teacher Shiloh Sophia McCloud is in New York this week and addressed the United Nations Commission on the Status of Women on March 4, 2013.  She presented a slideshow that featured 42 artists from Color of Woman Method and we each had three of our paintings included.  It was so exciting to see our art go out into the world to help show the healing power of art.

You can just make out an image from the slideshow on the wall behind her.  We are all so inspired by this amazing woman who has touched our lives so deeply.  I started painting about two years ago and had no art background at all.

Art has really changed my life on so many levels.  I miss my dining room because it has become my studio and is so full of my art supplies, canvases, paints, brushes, watercolor paper, and I have run out of room on my walls for my art so many are sitting on the floor stacked against each other.  I need to get my art out into the world because I have a small house and it is full of women on canvas.  My husband loves being surrounded with all the women though so that's really good news.

Anyway I am feeling so super charged and excited about the potential for this work, Color of Woman Method, to reach out to women and girls and allow them to discover the healing potential of creating art.   My head is swimming with ideas and I'm trying to decide if I want to start teaching classes or if I want to create video online classes or just paint and write.  It has been a bit overwhelming trying to learn all the technical aspects but I have learned a lot in the process.  So I will keep you posted and in the process keep myself posted ... writing helps you find out what's going on with you in your life.

 This is Sophie Rose and I just love her.  So here's to healing the world with image and love.

 So much more to come ... so much to share and play with.

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

I have been busy with my classes and painting and life in general.  Sometimes the summer heat makes me lazy and want to play instead of work ... and we all need playtime to recharge our creativity batteries.   This is a poem I just wrote:

The fear of fear
Many years ago 
I was so afraid
of fear
I would hide
from life
from myself
from my 
fear of fear
deep in denial
not the Nile
but more
like a dark
that swallowed 
the light rays
that tried to 
bring en”light”enment
to me 
and lift me up
I did a fire walk
and crossed
the abyss
of hot coals
and just knew
if I could 
just do this
one thing
I would 
never be 
afraid again
but I was wrong
so very mistaken
and so did not
understand fear
and it’s purpose
Fear visits me
fairly regularly
we are old friends
by now
and now I know
it will always
be part of me
and now 
I receive the gifts
that it brings to me
it shows me 
to parts of myself
I might never have known
had I allowed 
myself to 
be afraid of fear
and kept
the door shut tightly
against en”light”enment
Fear will bring you
to places where
you need to gather
your courage
unfurl your wings
and know and trust 
there is a message
being brought 
to you
it is a gift
and you must
go through your fear
to get past it
and it will not
leave you
where it found you
the fear of fear
is highly overrated
and fear is 
totally undervalued
and unappreciated
as the catalyst
and transformer it is
embrace fear
and know there is
a blessing that will follow

Unnamed painting

She feels powerful to me, muse-like, and beautiful.  Sometimes the names appear magically and sometimes they seem to allude me.